Let’s be real, this series isn’t perfect or finished. It’s me talking to my phone, saying “so” a lot, making weird little noises, figuring out how to speak a truth I was still coming to terms with.

Despite the name, this journey wasn’t about becoming someone new. This wasn’t a gentle awakening. It was a shock to my entire system. The moment I truly realized and accepted that I wasn’t just “spiritual,” but a literal Original Divine Essence, something ancient, as in one of the first 22 creations God Source Creator ever made. . .eternal, real, here in form. . .it changed everything. I didn’t cut or edit things to make them cleaner, because I didn’t want to clean up the most sacred thing I’ve ever done: remembering who I am. 

These videos are what happened after I found out that my life was never what I thought it was. I wasn’t born into this time and space knowing I was AlktelA. I had to remember her.

And then I had to figure out how to live as her, while still being Julianne.

Still feeding the dogs.

Still paying bills.

Still healing, so much healing even just physically, unraveling, reforming, rising.

Still doubting my sanity some days and choosing faith every single time.

Faith that God Source Creator (“GSC”) speaking to me was truth. And that GSC would keep giving me proof until there was no room left for doubt. 

This is not a how-to. This is a record. A field. A frequency. Of someone integrating a truth too big to fit in words, but showing up anyway. So no, I didn’t always know. And I definitely didn’t always feel ready. But the remembering didn’t wait.

Watch what calls you. Ignore what doesn’t.

Some of it is awkward. Some of it is loud. Some of it might stir something in you, too. And if it does. . .maybe you’re not just watching my remembering. Maybe you’re standing in front of your own.

With fierce love from the depths of my being.

—AlktelA